Hope. . .

Hope is something I do not have an abundant supply of,I am the pesimist in the family(a difference between Anne of Green Gables and myself), Gil is our optimist;yet today the Lord gave me hope. Hope in something better down the road, hope in my family, hope in my marriage, but most of all hope in myself. I was on a road of despair and I thought I was a lost cause. I believed there was no good way out and no good options open and then the heavens opened with mercy and grace rained down on me. Someone reminded me that God was closer to me than my very next breath and I believed him. Often I don't believe it when people say things like that but this time I did. I knew it to be true within my soul and today that was a miracle and now I have hope. I think I have taken my first step on the journey home and I think it's going to be a very long and hard journey, but maybe at the end I'll be a better person and maybe God will be waiting to welcome me. It's hard for me to imagine that because I have travelled so far away, and made so many mistakes but to know that I am at least on the right path is exciting.