The Grumpy Old Troll

Unfortunately for most residents of Green Gables there has been a grumpy old troll milling about lately. You would think with the holidays approaching and Rose moving in that all would be well within Green Gables walls but no the troll has been spotted everywhere, griping about almost everything, never happy, never satisfied, just perpetually grumpy. What is one to do with such a beast? Poor Gil seems to be bearing the brunt of my (yes it's me), grumpiness and I wish I could for sure ascertain the cause of my dip into the pit of crabiness.

My only defense may be this, that lately I have been trying to deal with the simmering pit of anger that lives beneath the surface of my subconcious. An anger that I have never awknowledged let alone allow myself to feel, anger being one of those emotions I'm not used to and therefore not comfortable with. I would rather ignore all feelings of anger or turn anger at myself than to actually deal with it and aim it at the appropriate people. So I have buried anger simmering inside and I've been in therapy trying to access it and give myself permission to feel it and aim it at the right people.

Unfortunately I think my aim is off because it seems to be hitting innocent bystanders -- mainly Gil, Rose is smart enough to run for cover. So to my family I will try better to aim the anger at the appropriate targets and until my aim gets better please don't hate me :)