My Husband is Having an Affair.

It's been two nights since it started. The conversation has wittled down to a crawl and he barely looks in my direction anymore. I sit and wait but he pays no mind. He spent all week-end thinking of the moment on Monday morning when he could finally get out of the house to go and pick her up. Despite how bad the weather was, how bad the driving was he had to go. When he came home there was barely a hello to me, and he was busy, setting up his next date. It seems the next date was only a few hours away.

Oh he helped with bathing the kids and getting them to bed, but then he was off again. I've seen her now, her sleek black body, thin and shapely unlike mine. He even went out again this afternoon to buy her a gift. He thinks I don't know but I saw the receipt. He says that he loves how she comes alive at his touch, how she will do what he asks her to, and so last night he didn't return to our bed until two in the morning. Tonight as soon as the kids were in bed he was off again. I descend into my resentful self. Even our cat Dickens has noticed and although Dickens usually despises me he has taken to cuddling on my lap, feeling rejected by his master as well. I told Gil tonight that I won't even try to compete, I can't. I know that, I'll never be that small, and definately not as easy to control or manouver.

There was a time when Dickens and I were best buddies, but when I had Jessica he got so annoyed with me for allowing something else to take his time on my lap that he threw me over for Gil. Now we are destined to become friends again as Gil throws him over for his new toy -- his laptop. His permanent companion these days. Yes I'm jealous of a machine ---- LOL. Did I have you going?