Davey,

I hope I don't embarrass you too much, but I always was the romantic mushy one. I have been so pleased to read your e-mails and catch up with you. Your son is sooo cute, it's a great name you picked out for him too, I really like that name.

I have missed you my friend more than any words can describe. Since we parted ways I have gone down roads of pain that aren't even describable and roads of joy that eclipse the most beautiful sunsets. All of my children are healthy, smart (too smart) and beautiful. My hubby is good to me -- a nerd. I always go for the nerds don't I -- well except for that Mike mistake, but we won't go there.

Gil has been very patient with me through these battles that have become almost unbearable. I live in a suburb north of Toronto, it's quiet and I don't have any friends in close proximity so often I begin to get lonely and to feel like the only chatter available to me is kid chatter which is one sure way to drive a person nuts.

I've traveled down some lovely paths and some paths that would bring you the darkest of nightmares. I still have my faith, and it keeps me alive and although I don't think a blog or even an e-mail could explain all to you, I do think we should talk sometime because it sounds like life has led you down a few roads too. I still think of you often, and miss your presence in my life. Thank-you for seeing something in me I never did see, something I couldn't see but because you saw it I was able to keep going. Thank-you for allowing me to feel innocent and beautiful, thank-you for the privilege of being your VERY first love.