Inquiring Minds. . .

Well I have recieved much input from my latest blog entry, voices of concern and well wishes and all are appreciated. Honestly I am not trying to be cryptic but revealing yourself even a little in such an open format is scary, and truth be told I don't even really know what's going on. I am going through a difficult trial of sorts but the hows and whys are so complex it's difficult on a good day to figure it all out, and now I know that the future holds many many bad days ahead and the thought is really scaring me.

I do not think I have enough of anything inside to sustain me, so I will look outside for the support for now because that is all I can do. I do know now that I actually understand and know very little about the human mind and what it is capable of in extreme circumstances, but the head knowledge and walking through it are two different things and if someone could give me a pill that would make this all go away and mean I would never have to walk through this fire, I would grab it up in a second and give away my life savings for it. Right now I wish Green Gables was in P.E.I, and that I was an orphan with loads of freckles but incredible promise. This blog is for all those inquiring minds that might want to know.