Dieting. . .
Trying to get fit, trying to be healthy, to exercise and to diet is what seems to be consuming me at the moment. I hate it, I hate excercise but I hate how I look right now more. So I am trying really hard to stick to the diet but most days I just want to throw it all out the window. Why do we have to diet, why can't we eat what we want when we want and still lose weight or at least stay the same. I used to be able to do that, then I had kids and it became something I have to work at, after Jessica I still did okay but then Christopher came along and my metabolism slowed down to a crawl. I started gaining weight even when I did not eat, and no matter what I did I couldn't seem to lose weight. The doctor and I even started to believe I had entered extremely early menopause, I was frustrated and at my wits end.
Then Glenn and I decided to embark on a crazy "all bacon all the time" diet(lol) and things managed to get jump-started. Suddenly I started to lose and so did Glenn. Of course I'm still not losing as fast as I want to but I know it's because I still need to add the fitness part into the diet. Yuck yuck yuck I hate exercise. It's too bad we don't have a pool or a squash court near us. Those are two things I love doing and would do so naturally thereby getting fit would be a by-product but unfortunately that is not my life so I must find other ways to get fit. At least another by product of the weight loss is that I have more energy to put into exercise. For awhile there I had barely enough energy to breath, and exist and now that energy is beginning to be in abundance so at least exercise is at least possible.
Yes after 20 years of not being able to function in the morning before noon, my clock has finally switched back and I now am awake during the day and sleeping peacefully at night. I did not think that this would ever be possible and I wish I had found the "secret pill" long before now. It would have been so much easier when the kids were super small if my time clock had been correct but until the past month being able to function before two in the afternoon was an impossible dream, now it is a reality and I am loving every second of it.
So all that to say that I no longer have an excuse not to be healthy not to get fit and even though I hate the idea I must start. . . yuck!
Then Glenn and I decided to embark on a crazy "all bacon all the time" diet(lol) and things managed to get jump-started. Suddenly I started to lose and so did Glenn. Of course I'm still not losing as fast as I want to but I know it's because I still need to add the fitness part into the diet. Yuck yuck yuck I hate exercise. It's too bad we don't have a pool or a squash court near us. Those are two things I love doing and would do so naturally thereby getting fit would be a by-product but unfortunately that is not my life so I must find other ways to get fit. At least another by product of the weight loss is that I have more energy to put into exercise. For awhile there I had barely enough energy to breath, and exist and now that energy is beginning to be in abundance so at least exercise is at least possible.
Yes after 20 years of not being able to function in the morning before noon, my clock has finally switched back and I now am awake during the day and sleeping peacefully at night. I did not think that this would ever be possible and I wish I had found the "secret pill" long before now. It would have been so much easier when the kids were super small if my time clock had been correct but until the past month being able to function before two in the afternoon was an impossible dream, now it is a reality and I am loving every second of it.
So all that to say that I no longer have an excuse not to be healthy not to get fit and even though I hate the idea I must start. . . yuck!
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