For the way He made me. . ,

For many years I fought the way I am, I disliked the very thing that actually kept me alive. I tried to cure it, wish it away, ignore it, run for it. Over the past three years I have now come to a place of acceptance and gratitude. I now realize if He hadn't in His wisdom created me this way there is a good chance I would not be where I am today. I would not be able to be a Mom, a wife, living a full life, instead likely I would be medicated, in a hospital or on the street. What I have, what people call a disorder, a disease, a coping strategy is really a unique gift from my creator. He knew when He knit me together because He stands outside of time that I would need this gift in order to withstand what I was going to go through. He knew the days I had in front of me and that I would need all the help I could get. So he gave me a unique ability and this condition saved me, kept me and allows me now to live the life I have. So today as I am closer and closer to freedom I can look back and welcome it as the gift it is. Today I can be grateful for this condition and understand it's presence in me. Today I am grateful, and humbled that in His love sought to protect me. Today this condition has 72 names, and I am grateful for all of them.