Please Daddy Let Me In

Christopher is not too sure about this white stuff. . .

Enjoying the Snow Day

Invisible. . .

Hate Me
Blue October


I have to block out thoughts of you so I don’t lose my head
They crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed
Dropping little reels of tape to remind me that I’m alone
Playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home
There's a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain
An ounce of peace is all I want for you. Will you never call again?
And will you never say that you love me just to put it in my face?
And will you never try to reach me?
It is I that wanted space

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you

Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you

I’m sober now for 3 whole months it’s one accomplishment that you helped me with
The one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing I won’t touch again
In a sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night
While I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight
You never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicidal hate
You made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take
So I’ll drive so fucking far away that I never cross your mind
And do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you

Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you

And with a sad heart I say bye to you and wave
Kicking shadows on the street for every mistake that I had made
And like a baby girl I never was a woman
Until I saw your blue eyes cry and I held your face in my hand
And then I fell down yelling “Make it go away!”
Just make a smile come back and shine just like it used to be
And then she whispered “How can you do this to me?”

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you

Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you
For you
For you
For you

Introducing SAWYER!!!!!!!

So as most of you know I am not a dog person, I prefer cats that is until I met Dickens. He liked me till I brought Jessica home from the hospital and we have been enemies ever since. However he is still chummy with Gil and that has thwarted my efforts to be rid of this creature that bites my ankles at night and constantly plots my demise. Well when Christopher decided that Dickens was a puppy and proceeded to haul him around like one Dickens then made his displeasure known to him in a number of ways and well that secured the option of one day having a puppy and being rid of that darn cat. Enter Sawyer----introduced to us by kind Noelle and her puppy Sawyer's brother Dexter. So after some long discussions, three little girls with puppy eyes willing to give up Christmas money, one little boy with puppy eyes and well you see the puppy it wasn't long before Gil was putty in our hands and Sawyer was and is ours. Now I must be off to start fixing up his quarters before he arrives. His arrival date is next Friday and barring further complications with our van, green gables will have a new tenant.

Aren't I great?

Jessica actually tried to get into the spirit by looking and acting depressed. Elizabeth's teacher decided that her costume was dangerous----apparently the pins I put in didn't impress her even though I had them positioned such that they would not cause harm. I am not an idiot. Frances on her adventures house to house declared to her dad when one lady tried to scare them, "I am not afraid of anything!!!!" Then at the next house the lady was sitting outside greeting the children and Frances went up to her and declared, "Aren't I great!!!!!!" Well at least her self-esteem is intact.

Ahoy matey!

My little pirate. Boy did I have to fight him to get his costume on. Unlike his sisters he does not like playing dress up---who'll figure. The hat managed to stay on for the picture with some candy as bribery but then it came off never to go on again. According to Gil he lasted twenty minutes and then sat in the wagon the rest of the time. Of course his royal highness still did not miss out because the kind people would see him in the wagon and instruct his sisters to give him some candy as well. So he got to trick or treat and still get carried around, or wheeled around. I know the trick of not walking around too, but I always got up for candy---you have me beat on that one.

Halloween at Green Gables.

Here are my girls. The pumpkin fairy, the goth and little Anne of Green Gables on their way to school. I actually dyed Jessica's hair twice. Once last night to the color blond(originally she wanted to be Avril Lavigne) then this morning to midnight black because the blond didn't take. Elizabeth allowed me to curl her hair, and I discovered that she has eye-lashes all girls dream of. They are long up to her eye-brow and they already are naturally thick and curl. That is before mascara is applied. I have to work long and hard to make my eye-lashes do that and even then it doesn't work right.