Happy Birthday Christopher! 

Happy First Birthday!!!!!!!!!

So my little man is one today. We didn't actually have celebrations; we decided to wait till Sunday and go to my parents and celebrate there. Like he'll know the difference right?

It was very melancholy though as I looked at him and today for some reason he took alot of energy. He seemed to be everywhere at once, wanting to be held and wanting down to look around. It's hard when there are others vieing for your attention too to pay so much attention to one little boy.

He discovered last week how to go up the step into the kitchen, today he discovered how to go down in a very controlled way, but still head first which of course made my heart stop.

Then we found out that he could climb the stairs. So now we have gates up everywhere trying to prevent our little climber from fufilling his destiny. Perhaps he'll be a rock climber when he grows up (heaven forbid). I think he should be a Pastor like his grand-daddies and keep his feet flat on the ground. But he'll find his own way and surprise us all.

Everyone in this house seems to be growing so fast that my heart weeps. Jessica is hardly home anymore, she's out having fun with one of her friends on the street, and in two weeks she's off to camp for two weeks. Sigh . . . What is a poor mother to do. Now I know why my mom was so cross when I wouldn't phone home when I went to college. All little birds must spread their wings, learn to fly, and then fly away. I just wish the process could slow down so that I could be less flustered and enjoy it more.

Happy Birthday little man. I pray this year will be filled with joys unimaginable. As you learn to talk, and walk, and maybe even run. I'll be right there behind you helping you up when you fall.

Almost One. . .

My baby is almost one and I am cascading into a dark depression. He inches like a little inch worm along the floor, he sits and babbles and laughs, he uses my hands and other various objects to stand and soon he'll be walking. To all of this I yell stop!!!!!!! I'm not ready for my little man to become a little bigger. I'm not ready for the independance I already see fostering in his little brain. I'm not ready to let go of this baby stage. Not yet, it is too fast, it has gone too fast and I know it will only go faster. I came along this quote and it describes exactly how I feel.

"Ah but the last one. The baby who trails his scent like a flag of surrender through your life, when there will be no more coming after----oh, that's love by a different name. He is the babe you hold in your arms for an hour after he's gone to sleep. If you put him down in the crib, he might wake up changed and fly away. So instead you rock by the window, drinking in the light from his skin, and breathing his exhaled dreams. Your heart bays to the double crescent moons, closed lashes on his cheeks. He's the one you can't put down." (Barbara Kingsolver)

Slow down little man and let mommy catch up.

Forgive. . .

"Forgive. . .Sounds Good
Forget. . . I don't think I could
They say time heals everything. .
But I'm still waiting. .. "
(Dixie Chicks)

Anderson Anderson wherefore art thou Anderson?

I am about to gush like a teen-age girl. I have for a long time now had a crush on Anderson Cooper of CNN. I have liked him before the book, the many Oprah shows, and before Katrina. So his book promo tour has been wonderful, a chance to learn more about him and see more of him. Unfortunately for me, I cannot get his book. No one up here has it. What is wrong with the Canadian bookstores that they are not stocking this exceptional memoir? What is wrong with us Canadians that we are not leaving our jobs and lining up in the streets in protest over this very thing!!!!!!!It has head-longed me into a pit of despair. My only hope is that Anderson Cooper will hear of my plight and do a story about it.

Yes Gil knows all about this, it's sweet revenge for all I had to endure listening to his gushing about Gillian Anderson. Hmmm, we are both fans of someone with Anderson in the name.